Former world No. 4 Jelena Dokic opened up about suicide attempt as she revealed that she was close to taking her own life in late April. Dokic, who retired from professional tennis in 2014, has been battling depression and anxiety for the last six months.
Dokic, who now works as a tennis commentator, couldn't bear the pain and suffering anymore and she was on the verge of jumping off her balcony. Fortunately, Dokic was able to recollect herself in those moments and a tragic ending was avoided.
"28.04.2022-I almost jumped off my 26th floor balcony and took my own life," Dokic wrote in an Instagram post. "Will never forget the day. Everything is blurry. Everything is dark. No tone, no picture, nothing makes sense - just tears, sadness, depression, anxiety and pain.
The last six months have been tough. It’s been constant crying everywhere. From hiding in the bathroom when at work to wipe away my tears so that nobody sees it to the unstoppable crying at home within my four walls has been unbearable."
Dokic: I pulled myself of the edge
"Constant feelings of sadness and pain are just not going away and my life has been shattered," Dokic added. "I blame myself, I don’t think I am worthy of loving and I am scared.
I also know that I still have so many things to be grateful for and then I start to hate myself because by feeling this way I feel like I am not grateful because I mustn’t be since I want to end it all. Such a vicious cycle in my head.
The result:almost jumping off my 26th floor balcony on April 28th. Will never forget the day, I just wanted the pain and the suffering to stop. I pulled myself of the edge, don’t even know how I managed to do it. Getting professional help saved my life." In the rest of the post, Dokic added she will continue to fight and vowed to return even stronger.